Setting up schedule for Spin/lift/couch to 5k plan.

eggs w/ cheese and sausage for breakfast. coffee was necessary and delicious. only opted for 1 slice of (wheat!) toast and avoided the potatoes altogether.

Now I must drink 3 cups of water before the end of the day…

930pm update: Drank at least 3 cups of water so that is good. Feel like I should drink more, but I’m in the bed!

Lunch was a salad and water, it was really good!

Snack was soup and 3 vegetarian chikn nuggets (protein!) and some tortilla strips. I was hungry!

dinner was grilled pork and water and i have some pretzels and peanut butter to snack on because i still feel hungry.

I set up a run/spin/lift target schedule for the week. That seemed to work well last year. Body is sore and I’m tired, but could be any number of things. Just gonna take it easy.

Starting over. Again. But that is okay. Starting weight 283.5 lbs.

I will never give up.

Monday: Drink 20 oz H20; rest, mani/pedi, join livestrong.com and check out gym schedules.

Tuesday: 550am spin class + 30 oz H2O

Wednesday: 30 minutes walk  + 30 oz H2O

Thursday: 550am spin class+ 30 oz H2O

Friday: 30 mins walk + 30 oz H2O

Saturday: 8am spin class or 30 mins walk + lift + 30 oz H2O

Sunday: 9am spin class or 30 mins walk + lift + 30 oz H2O

I went to spin class on wednesday morning for the first time in what…a year? I seriously fell off the wagon when I fell in love. BUT, I’m working on getting back on the wagon.  My butt is sore from the saddle, but it felt great to sweat and start the day off with a workout. I hope you all are faring much better. But I will keep trying. 

How have you kept yourself motivated?

645am: Spin

645am: Spin Class

Felt great! I missed it. Building my workout log for the week. Over the long break, which turned out to be 3 weeks for me, I didn’t gain any weight! I’m also tickled that I ran. Although that was a week ago, I know I can do it. I’m excited to be back “home” and able to get back into my routine(s).

Mon: Spin
Tues: Run + Lift
Weds: Spin
Thurs: Run + Lift
Fri: Spin

Sat: Spin

Sun: Rest

Yesterday was something altogether too complex to blog about off the cuff. We burried/creamated my mother’s mother. The private post i wrote yesterday was around alot of childhood issues that i have finally begun to address which all lead/led to the relationship with food that i used to have (emphasis on the past tense).

I feel soooo good today. Not that much has changed or that anything is different, the things I need to do better…they are still there. The things I need to work on…still need work. But I now know that food is no longer my master.

long story short: throughout the funeral when i got overwhelmed or anxious i just said to myself “you’re okay, you’re okay. be here now” and when all the food was laid out, the achilles heel of my life, i ate what i wanted and then when i felt i was going to keep eating, though i didn’t feel out of control, i just said to myself “eat what you want, you’re safe, there’s enough food here for you, you’re okay, you’re safe. if you are hungry later eat then.” and i….stopped! no struggle, no pain.

i had bought some fruit for myself as well which i still have (next morning) late last night i started to feel hungry, but i was also having a deep (and good) conversation with a friend and talking about some emotional stuff and i went to look at the room service menu. i was legitimately getting hungry, but fortunately they’d stopped service for the night.

i remembered i had fruit and was like if you’re really hungry, you’ll eat that. i laid down, and turned off the light and said “you’re okay, you’re safe, you have everything you need. there will be yummy food tomorrow” and i was okay.

i ordered steak and eggs w/ hashbrowns and toast for breakfast. the steak and eggs portion were small (by american standards) and I REJOICED. I ate what i wanted and said “you’re okay, you’re not hungry anymore, there’s more food later if you get hungry” and i didn’t finish the (already small) steak or the potatoes and didn’t eat any of the bread.

i’m done with dieting. i will eat what my body craves, when my body craves it. i’m okay, i’m safe, i have everything i need, i have love, and the food isn’t going to run out.

45 minutes of walk, run, walk, run, walk, run, walk. It was hard, but easy at the same time. It hurt, but it felt good too. I never once used my inhaler and whereas previously I have been self-concious about being seen running in broad daylight (i.e. not under cover of darkness or on a treadmill), today: I just didn’t give a damn.

But today: I ran.

 I’m in Hampton at my parent’s house so I headed over to a local gym and it was hilarious. The spin instructor wasn’t a day under 60 years old, and there were only 2 others in the class, neither of them a day under 55. But it was charming in a hackneyed sort of way. The music was 80′s pop (think Footloose and Flashdance) which I really liked and broke a nice sweat.

The spin bikes are kind of old though so I’m not as excited about going the rest of this week. Haven’t been out for a run yet, but got new underarmour socks and a Nike heart rate monitor to try out!

My goals for the week:

Monday: Couch to 5k Running Program kick off and Spin Class at local gym

http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml 

Tuesday: Couch to 5k Running Program Workout #2

Wednesday: Lift + Spin or Step Mill

Thursday: Couch to 5k Running Program Workout #3

Friday: Rest/Travel to Atlanta (??) and Ask SSB if there are any Spinning Classes at her local gym?

I am still in C’ville and have worked out 3 days in a row! Today’s spin class was taught by Mahogany, a rather flamboyant yet fabulously hard bodied multi-racial man who had us clapping, singing along and pushing ourselves to the limit! It was hella-fun.

My left quadracep is shredded though. I need to maybe lay off it, I need a massage.

I am soooo not eating clean…I need to get that under control. I also need to lift sometime soon before I lose all mah powwwah! lol.